cure apathy

so many adventures.
my emotional nerve endings feel totally fried.
need to make more time for myself/ stop talking so much/ get better at expressing when i'm feeling too sensitive to listen or to have company at all.
that being said, i don't think i have ever felt this consistently positive about life/ myself/ people/ possibilities. i feel capable and powerful.
unending heaurtbeemz

treshurin'lyf

just applied to defer studying fine art at monash for a year! yay! excited about discovering that i can exist as a real person minus an institution.
things are workin out. will no longer be unemployed as of monday!

pipilotti rist has an exhibition on at acca at the moment. very much worth going.
http://www.accaonline.org.au/Current



excited about this:


also, this is great:
http://internetkhole.blogspot.com/

planning to drive up to sydney with some pals to see the picasso exhibition!

tuesday 24

https://corner.ticketscout.com.au/gigs/188-thee-oh-sees

http://becausegoodbye.tumblr.com/

music and book reviews, writings and general greatness.

tomorrow night!

"Sugar Mountain Presents ~
'YES!’ 
An exhibition of new works and installations by artists : 
MAYA HAYUK (Brooklyn, NY) & KYLE RANSON (San Fran, CA).
*A very special acoustic performances via :
Kyle Ranson & Maya Hayuk
+
Mouth Tooth
*As well as DJ :
Sunni Hart
No Vacancy Gallery
QV, Swanston Street, Melbourne
(Entry via Jane Bell Lane)
Opening Night : Friday 20 January 
Time : 6pm till 9pm
Exhibition will run until Friday 27 January 2012
[ FREE ENTRY ]
www.no-vacancy.com.au"

 and this!

WOOLLEN KITS LP LAUNCH
"So we went and made an album, coming out on RIP Society Records in Jan 2012. We wanted a party to launch it, and also say hey to everyone who has helped us out along the way, and look at this ridiculous shit we ended up organising!
WOOLLEN KITS (LP Launch)
Of the LP, RIP Society says: "“This isn’t an episode of *Happy Days, Woollen Kit’s debut LP is believable in its honesty with an earnest sentiment similar to Television Personalities and The Modern Lovers.”"
And a few early reviews of the LP to whet your appetite:
"They sort of sucked once they started writing songs that didn't sound like Beat Happening any more."
"i'm disappointed all the songs aren't titled ''oh''"
DEAD FARMERS (Sydney) 7" LAUNCH
Dead Farmers rule, and this latest 7", also out on RIP Society, rules too. A really hard n heavy rock n roll band, power-trio - Sabbath, Blue Cheer, Big Star and more recently Birds Of Maya/Purling Hiss kinda territory. Killer big riffs, dual vocals, three handsome boys. To be honest it'll be intimidating following them up!
UV RACE (first show in ages)
Can't really over estimate these guys - prolific, hard-working, hit-making, and says that guy from Frenzal Rhomb on JJJ, part of the "next wave of awesome Australian bands" whatever the fuck that means. I dunno man, you know who UV Race are, we are so glad they could do this show, love these dudes and ladies.
LOOSE GRIP (Brisbane)
Coming to Melbourne for the first time, I don't know heaps about Loose Grip, except that Joe from Bedroom Suck/Kitchen's Floor and Harry from Per Purpose are in it, they're a punk band and they have one of the best band names in THE WORLD. All reports say they rule and I believe in them.
DOORS AT 8PM
LOOSE GRIP 8.30
UV RACE 9.30
DEAD FARMERS 10.30
WOOLLEN KITS 11.30
$12
Alright thanks guys, see you there."


also, kinda wishing that i didn't sell my ticket to this now. but when you have less that 100$ to last until i-don't-know-when, spending 35$ to see some bands isn't the greatest move.



Dan Deacon Ensemble - Of The Mountain @ Corner, Richmond (13th Jan 2012) from Carbie Warbie on Vimeo.

PROTECT IP / SOPA Breaks The Internet from Fight for the Future on Vimeo.

HEARTBEEEEMZ

so great!
also; copy paste from facebook because i'm lazy and sleepy but i wanna share my love for these bands:

HO-MY-GAWD-probably-maybe-the-best-line-up-i-have-ever-seen(in-recent-memory);-full-ugly,-lower-plenty-and-pop-singles!-incredible!-don't-think-i-have-ever-so-thoroughly-enjoyed-an-entire-show-before!-thank-you-for-existing-Michael-Thomas-Nathan-Ashleigh-and-other-babes-i-have-yet-to-meet!-the-sound-also,-thank-you-Louis!-happy-times!
http://www.myspace.com/fullugly
quick internet search for lower plenty only produced this: http://www.messandnoise.com/discussions/4202877
http://popsingles.bandcamp.com/
and another thing! this is my friend jon and he is great:

http://www.flickr.com/photos/softscience/

spoonful of sugar

i feel good and calm and happy for the first time in a while. since getting back from tas maybe three weeks ago i have been feeling strange; isolated, unsure, inadequate and lost. feeling directionless and unemployed whilst i was down south didn't matter so much - getting a job wasn't feasible and living on limited money wasn't tremendously difficult, i was surrounded by people constantly, whose company i really enjoyed and doing nothing-in-particular for a month didn't make me feel unproductive or anxious. but back in melbourne, i relapsed into a nervous wreck; fiercely biting my nails, not feeling able to interact with people, particularly in large groups and feeling crushed by a hideous apathy that was a product of my typical preemption of failure (of everything that involves me making constructive decisions) and thus, i felt at a complete loss as to deciding where i want to be (living arrangements) and what i want to do (employment/ uni/ doing things for myself). eventually, needing to take some sort of action, i moved all of my things to my dad's place in glen iris. for the first time in three years, all of my possessions are in one place. i spent hours sorting out my room, cleaning, throwing things out and rearranging, culminating in a beautiful, open space, where i actually want to spend my time. dad took my little brother to queensland for two weeks so i had the house to myself; a four bedroom house that is usually inhabited by seven people. stark contrast to the house in hobart, which, at times, slept eighteen people, including three children, in a six bedroom home. living alone, as well as being in glen iris (an hour and half on public transport to get anywhere on the north side - where i spend most of my time) meant that i felt quite isolated, not necessarily in a negative way, but on top of that, the distance made me ever reluctant to leave the house at all. on friday i finally motivated myself to leave glen iris (for social purposes, rather than job-seeking), to meet some pals from tasmania at lentils, took my bike on the train to east richmond and rode from there to abbotsford. a nice little discovery; that method only takes a half hour and saves me the 15km bike ride (which i have no worries with sometimes, but i  don't feel up to it all the time), consequently eroding some of the isolation feelings. a night of easy company with really lovely, genuine people evoked the absence of self-consciousness and social insecurity that defined my time in tasmania. saturday, i finished painting the front of my mum's house in richmond; two shades of sago and a front door of deep fuscia. that night, i proved my theory that kissing people that drink beer makes me ill; that minuscule amount of gluten can still affect me (i have coeliac disease). so the next day i had pretty intense stomach pains, a headache and ended up needing to eat lots of panadol. no regrets though; make outs trumped getting sick.

C:
sunday at a show at tinning street, i got to see full ugly and milk teddy jams (tom's falsetto makes for prime listening), temporarily quenching my thirst for melbourne music. whilst i was in hobart, every now and again i would get a powerful craving to see milk teddy or dick diver, the twerps or full ugly, so in that sense, it's good to be back home.

drove down to mum's beach shack at point cook today. went for a swim as the sun dipped towards the horizon, then sat in a deck chair reading and writing until a faint white crust of sea salt appeared on my skin. drank cider and ate prawns with avocado for dinner.

lyf-rules.

here are some nice things:

http://htmlflowers.tumblr.com/