satisfy

went to the wild exhibition (hundreds of taxidermy animals) at the melbourne museum again on sunday. these are their rats and mice. i'm reading anne rice's interview with a vampire; very passionate and chilling. feel a little lost with emma gone.

i recognize

burd!

oh i miss this haus!

http://www.myspace.com/mandjkforever

three new songs! it's been a long time.
haven't played them with jorja yet.
i don't understand myspace anymore!!

- strangers
- secret river
- help me move, help me run

probably the most excellent photo of jorja in existence

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leave behind all
your childish crimes -
quiet as a mouse
because there are strangers in my
house

i waste my time.

moving slow, trying not to feel inadequate; i'm just little.
negative weight, empty porch, bitter tea.
press harder.
been working on my false setto; milk teddy tom and pj harvey's new record have inspired me.
chill. i felt the air become thick with water as i walked home.
i suffocate when i get what i want.

hiromi hotel, IMA. mid '09

http://hiromihotel.com/works/ima

this is an exhibition i was part of around june/july last year. i recently wrote a statement for the website. check it out. hiromi tango is a dear friend of mine, her art is very open and beautiful.

hiromi in my cubby:

 

the other guest artists (miss helen, kay lawrence, ariel erglis, georgia freebody, helen miller, molly, marisol da silva and yuki nakano) were set up in tents in the space in front of the caravan, i chose to build mine behind it.

being inside hiromi's caravan was very powerful and overwhelming but also very warm and safe

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Home and Displacement.

The exhibition came at a very poignant time for me; my parents freshly divorced, the loss of my childhood home and whilst I attempted to adjust to and create a positive environment in my two new houses (with two sets of rules, expectations, lenience, atmospheres etc;). I felt extreme powerlessness during this period – decisions were being made for me and the decisions of my family were making a huge impact on my surroundings.
Hiromi invited me to participate in ‘Hiromi Hotel’, enabling me to create a soft, small, inviting space for myself, with her caravan and therefore herself as my support. Using my journals in the exhibition alleviated much of the pressure I was feeling at the time’ sharing myself – my art and my emotions, but asking for nothing in return. This was incredibly liberating for me.
I feel a deep connection with Hiromi and her work. Her open, genuine and loving character has influenced me greatly.

mandarine

i'm on a panel tomorrow night at signal:

Express media panel: Dear diary

Readings and discussions about childhood diaries and journals with Sam Cooney, Maddie Kelly, Nathan Smith and David Mence.
When: Wednesday 14 April
Time: 7.30pm – 8.30pm
Cost: FREE
Bookings: artisticdirector@expressmedia.org.au
Flinders Walk, Northbank, Melbourne VIC 3001
Behind Flinders St Station towards Sandridge Bridge

yellow pages; some of my current journal

Pink Thoughts

06-04
Rain doesn't soak through your jacket.
An impersonation of you reminds me that you still exist. Our last meeting seemed so promising, but it stings that you only find me when you need me. I hoped for more.
Even if your body tells otherwise; it, you, me, infinity.
I'm tired. I envy your fearlessness.

08-02
I would like your little face in my hands.

16-12
I ask you to try. You use a keyboard instead.
We have not spoken in a while, but that is ok.
I know understand how easy it is to lose interest in something that is offered so readily.
I want to see you grow, not stagnate.
So I look the other way.
I'll be back soon. I always come back.